Awakening Divine Feminine The Good

Now that I knew I was the Divine Feminine in this connection I began to understand that I in fact was also considered the chaser (yay for the Divine Feminine) ... Now I have always been a chaser of sorts... Because I am a people pleaser I have always chased success it didn't matter what it was I have always had a mentally of success and to get anything and everything I want... Which is both a good and bad things also a sign of ADHD ... lol

With my Twin, I had to have him... I had to be in presents or have his presents in my life and without him I feel incomplete... Like there is a part of me missing... I LONG for him in a way that is hard to describe... I guess it almost hurts... Example during our time in seperation... I would do a thing I like to call journal texting... I was blocked so I knew he wouldn't receive my rambling, but I would tell him how I felt, how much I missed him... but also how pissed I was that I couldn't let him go like I was a love sick crazy person and how much I hated it...

The Spiritual Awakening in general though was the coolest thing to happen and really didn't depend on my twin.. Meaning, I had all these new insights about the world... It was like I could feel and see things differently than the way I did before... I could almost see people hearts, if that makes any type of sense... I could see a homeless person with a good heart and biker with a good heart... even though some people might be scare of them because of their physical appearance it didn't seem to bother me at all. I had many people, tell me, ohhhhh don't talk to that person or aren't you scared to walk down that street at night because of that one crazy homeless person... and I was always like no... that new insight of mine went both ways though, there were multiple times, I met someone where I didn't want to be any near them, even though everyone seemed to like them... It felt almost like my stomach turned or I got really hot and I had to get away... In short though something I just loved about this is physical appearance not longer play any type of role at all in my thoughts about a person. I know it might sound strange but you would surprised in your own life how much appearance matters.

I mentioned in another post about being to watching tarot readings... I began to think about this more and more as a way to start seeing clearer into different situations... So I began getting every deck I could... I people would ask me why I had so many decks and at first I didn't understand it either... But then as I started to use them I began to see that the pictures on the cards would tell me different stories... I would be drawn to one deck over another... They would almost speak to me differently because of the images... I would consider myself more of an intuitive reader over a master of the cards meanings.. meaning, a card like the six of cups, for example means traditionally nostalgia, happy memories, renewing friendships and recovery but often times with my twin, I can actually see him looking back at our conversations, see him pining over something he said, other times I can see him thinking about his children or even his childhood... it really depends on the reading... I take the little pictures and experiences I see in my head and apply them to cards. I really liked this practice because I found when you are experiencing someone else's thoughts or experiences because they are not your own you often forget them very quickly so applying them to cards really helped me gather my thoughts in a collective way. This has been an interesting experience because clearly with my twin I do not share this information or ask for validation but I feel that they are right.... (LOL says every crazy person)

Now as I began to use tarot to help me understand what I was seeing, I needed to understand how accurate they were... This was something I was very nervous to do because what if I did readings for others and they were WAY off... Would this mean the crazy house was right around the corner now? And of course, I didn't want to face that reality if it were true so I kept my tarot reading to myself for a long time, but a friend of mine asked if I would do a reading for her... And I said ok, but did tell her it would be the first time I had ever done that for someone else.... and well lets just say I nailed it... It was pretty remarkable because two people came out and I was able to get both of their thoughts, feeling and intentions perfectly and give them advice... I did another reading for a family member on health. I performed a general reading on health with no context other than she wanted to know what I saw... I was able to tell her was very worried about an upcoming appointment and even provide the date of the appointment... Let's just say this was all very neat and validating that I was in fact in a Twin Flame connection and most likely the readings I was doing on the other personal situations were also correct...

During these readings, I began to focus on the person that I was doing on... I would attempt to find them in the 3D but in my mind... I wanted to see if I could seem them where they were in the world, this helped me to connect to them for their readings.... One day, I told a friend that this is how I connect, they had asked me well how accurate is it when you find people... I thought, about it and I said I didn't know... They asked me to find them and describe it.... I thought that it would be a fun exercise so I focused on this friend... now I had never been to this friends house and I was able to describe their house as single story house and they needed to pull weeds, there were 4 cars out front and something on right side of the house covered up that I didn't think worked and it was by a gate. My friend said informed me I was close, that there were 5 cars out front and the thing on the side of the house was a covered up motorcycle.... I responded with, if I was that right about everything, that I wanted them to get up and check how many cars were outside like for sure... They got up to check, and laughed and said there were in fact 4 cars out front that their mom had left! This blew my mind! I could do remote viewing too.... like WHAT.... so I tried to go into my friends house... and I began asking questions... There was clearly something hanging over a window in the room I was in... like a blanket... I asked and my friend and said they didn't have anything covering their window... but I was seeing it clear as day sooo I asked if any other family member had something covering their windows they say no.... hmmmm I was so perplex like I could see it... So I told my friend, let me describe where this room is, if i go in the front door it is straight back at the back of the house and the window would be on the right... my friend broke out in laughter... and I responded with "What?" of course..... They responded with that isn't a blanket you are seeing it is a shower curtain... I was confused of course, a shower curtain? They explained they were making that room a golf simulator and the shower curtain is kind of like a screen! Talk about a mind blowing experience!

These new found gifts (we will call it) is pretty freaking amazing! Right!!! I mean who wouldn't want this... well then, came the things I didn't necessarily want to experience ...