Awakening.... Day 1

PLEASE NOTE: MANY OF THE DETAILS HAVE BEEN CHANGED TO PROTECT THE INDIVIDUALS IN MY EXPERIENCE. THE CONTEXT OF THE EXPEREINCES HAVE NOT BEEN.

The Night I left my Twins house after he validated many of thoughts and feelings I began to accept the journey I was on... I mean, at this point I had to begin believe there was a higher level of something happening here, right? I drove down the street from my Twins house and sat in a parking lot ... Just sitting there ... Sitting in my thoughts of what just happened... NOT only the great, amazing and incredible sex... but the fact I knew what was going to happen... How did I know these things...

I started to think about the day I met my Twin... about however from the moment I met him, it was like I couldn't get him out of my head... But why? Why did that happen? This man isn't someone I would normally gotten stuck on... He wasn't really anything outside of the ordinary, yet for me he was ... well... like a part of me. Good lord that makes me sounded like I am serial killer, let's correct that, it was like he was a missing piece I had been searching for my whole life... Again, I didn't feel all of this when we first met... He was just a guy, a person really I kept bumping into and I couldn't get out of my mind...But now, it was so much more.

As I sat in my car, I began to believe in what was happening. I didn't feel anything change in that moment but something most certainly changed...

The next night, was the night I was going to go see all my dirty picture friends! When I saw my one friend, the one I said the universe brought back to me also known as dirty picture guy number 1, I gave him a BIG hug and something happened! It was profound, it took me back, it was... well what was it... It was like a little vision... Before I explain the vision, I have to explain something about this man. He is very attractive, smart, kind and funny, but he would always tell me things like I was to innocent, things would never work between us and kind of just laugh when I would make jokes that we should go out.... This was always a burning thought in the back of my mind... Just lingering back there... Ok back to the vision (can you tell I have ADHD yet?) anyways, I saw something it was like a not even full second flash of an image, but in that flash I felt it more than anything.. Let me describe the feeling first, the feeling was pleasure, happiness and enjoyment... but the vision, to me, didn't match what I saw at all... I saw a woman tied up, she was tied with a rope and it was tight, in fact there were parts of her body that were bluish.. This was incredibly shocking to me and kind of threw me for a loop... I didn't know what to think about this vision, was it a vision? maybe it was something else..

Later that night, remember the guy I mentioned I actually really liked, the one that I gave a warning too? Well, he kissed me and I felt safe in his arms.. I enjoyed my kiss for a moment. but then, well, I saw another vision... I was met with a vision of him sleeping with a woman I thought be might be sleeping with... and well, I got to see all that in horrifying detail. It was really an awful thing to experience. Now you might be wondering, why I would be kissing this man? Even though, I had reconnected with my Twin... Well, remember I was still on a path that I didn't understand yet and he still had me blocked from all I could tell... At this point, I am like, "Yo I am beautiful, smart and I can do anything soooo Block me all you want Twin, I will do what I want!" lol but remember how nice the universe is? Yeah, I got to watch the new guy I really like fuck another woman in my head! Soooo that was fun! Also, when you see something like this, what do you say? You can't say anything... You can be like "Hey new guy, I know you fucked someone?" lol who cares, he is 39 years old, of course he has sex with women before... It is just a little tiny personal nightmare for me, thanks universe... I also couldn't say "Hey, I saw a vision!" He would be like "Ummmmm see ya later crazy"....

And lastly, that night I was talking to my first friend again and he gave me a hand hug... basically a high five but our thumbs wrapped around the side of each others hands (soooo cute)... And I saw another vision... I saw him kiss a woman he was telling me about, and how much he liked her. In this vision, again, I feel them more than I see them; but I could tell she wanted him to kiss her, but was still shocked when he did. The kiss lasted a little longer than he thought it would and then they kind of lean in heads and smiled. I could also tell it was night and they were either out on a street or in a backyard. There were these little orbs of light in the background, and I couldn't tell if they were street lights or patio lights that everyone is in love with (I would have them too, if I could afford them and knew how to hang them up, LOL, until then I am salty about the cute lights... damn you ADHD back to my story)

Three visions same night! I was really really blown away by all this and this was not something that had happened before, in fact, nothing like this has ever happened sooooo what did I think? Yep, mental hospital here I come. So I proceeded to get drunk and when I got home I had liquid courage! I reached out to my friend... and was like "hey, I have been having some weird shit happen..." I told him I had been experiencing little visions in my head, fully knowing this man would ask me if I had seen anything with regards to him! Nailed it! He did ask me... But now I have to tell him about a tied up woman... that was pretty nerve racking... I was very scared this would make this man never talk to me again, if I was wrong... right? Like who sees something like that? But I was good and drunk and full of courage... so I told him... I told him everything I saw in that little weird flash... It took him a long time to respond... Sooo long in fact, I panicked started deleting message and started apologizing.. When he sent me a picture of a woman in strapped lingerie... Not what I saw... And I responded with such, I asked if he ever tied people up with ropes and well very tight... He explained YES he did and he was part of a community! LIKE WHAT! I was floored! Completely floored!!! First, who sees something like that can second, I was right again... At this point, I felt pretty safe telling him about the second vision! But when I something strange happened, and I realized at this moment I needed to be careful what I told people... After telling him about the second vision, he got extremely sad, because in my tiny vision I missed some serious context... Right after the kiss, they decided that they shouldn't be together and he got his things and left... He was heartbroken because he genuinely loves her, like I could feel it... So Yes, I was right, awesome for me, but I made my friend super sad with the memory... And I missed important context ...

Day 2 of my awakening was a lot of research about what the hell was happening to me... Nothing crazy happened... But I did begin to watch YouTube Tarot readings, specifically by one creator... It was really interesting to me because, it was like she was describing me and my situation... I only clicked on videos that I was called too.. (Still so weird to me to say things like called too... but here we are...)

Day 3, things happened again but this time they were different... like again, took me by surprise and very uncomfortable for me!!!